Buddhism Is Drop Everything and Live on Alms

I would take Buddhism integrally as a model of conduct if doing so did not involve assuming a state of dependence that I find intolerable. Buddhism, to the letter, is to drop everything and live on alms. From this, the conclusion: if the final liberation requires as a mandatory step the complete subjection to this world, even temporarily, I will never experience it. It is as if, desiring freedom, it were first necessary to submit to the worst and most complete form of slavery. On second thought, I correct myself: I would not take Buddhism integrally because, integrally, anything becomes unpalatable.