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Expansions in Shock

I look at my thirty-six poems. They came out, that is for sure. Months of hard work, but they came out. Then I notice the immense contrast between the gusts that I simply allowed to manifest. The moralism I dislike is an obligatory component in my lines—I will never silence it, I will never neutralize a dimension of myself… Then, the psychology of despair, the ruptures of the mind inserted in a body contrary to action, perplexed by existence. And finally, cynicism, mockery, the expression of someone incapable of not consciously shooting himself into ridicule. Let us follow with the ultimate…

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Fatigue

Fatigue, total exhaustion. Feeling of having seen all the examples too soon. Too predictable, uninteresting conducts. Nothing new, ever. Repetition that starts to irritate. Absolute disenchantment, desire to paralyze time, blacken all colors, annul reality…

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Conscience Manifests Itself by Engaging in Conflict

An accurate psychological analysis shows that the conscience manifests itself by engaging in conflict. In other words: the conscience is nothing but a reaction, a manifestation contrary to natural psychological impulses. To let it speak, then, is to rebel against one’s own genius, giving rise to a perhaps unnecessary war, because one lives naturally without involving in this unpleasant inner conflict. I said unnecessary; well then: these are the ones from which any possible honor is extracted.

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Endless Tyranny

Seeking meaning through external phenomena is a mechanism that, although common, will never lead to independence. To attach value to uncontrollable judgments, when not simply unfair, is to level oneself down and show a lack of autonomy. It is worse to see that acceptance, when effected, does nothing but points out the types of flocks—the absolute majority—that, although they do not perceive, will never leave the condition of vassals, because to see the medium as sovereign is to submit to an endless tyranny.

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